|mid month blues
||[Sep. 18th, 2013|08:50 pm]
circle my mistakes
I hate to blame it on my hormones because at this time of the month that seems so illogical and as if it's just an excuse for the clarity that I feel at this time during my cycle... but|
it is my hormones.
Every month I go through a time where I am absurdly happy and content with my life. Following this I am profoundly unhappy and dissatisfied with my life. Every choice I made in the past is dissected and critiqued, followed by pointless daydreams about what I would do if I were able to go back and 'fix' things.
Even though I am able to set my thoughts apart during these daydreams and reason with myself... I still do it.
The answer would be, of course, to take the knowledge of what I would do to 'fix' the past and apply it to my life now. But I am utterly impotent. All I do is think about it and drive myself crazy with what-ifs.
I really have no idea how to help myself during these times.