|An end to the American experiment
||[Mar. 21st, 2017|01:44 pm]
circle my mistakes
It was never really clear whether or not I would stay there forever and as time marched on I began to feel sad, deep inside me. The desert was good for me for a while but I'm back in England now. When i think back on the last 6 months I honestly struggle to believe that we pulled it off. We sold our house, packed up all we could carry - donated or sold everything else and flew here to start a new life. What's so odd to me and is creating this odd emotional tummult is the effortless feeling that this is my life now. I feel like maybe I should be happier every day, but I'm not.. then I get annoyed with myself for not being happier. For what it's worth, I am happy.. just not all the time. |
I've been living here for 6 weeks now, I think that was just about how long I spent in the UK the last time I visited in 2015. So after this week I will have been here for the longest amount of time since 2007.
Oddly enough, I looked back in the archive to read the 2007 entry closest to this date and it was about my eagerness to move to the USA. I don't regret it one bit, I grew enormously. It was just time to come back home.
Of course, you can never please the masses. When living in the USA "You're from England, why did you come here?", when living in the UK "You were living in America, why did you come back here?"
Why, for healthcare that's free at the point of use.. for however long it remains so.